I was sorting out my personal folders/email archives yesterday night.
I came across a super old folder containing this email dated February 14 2012, from my first sort of "real*" GF to me.
*When I say "real", I mean a relationship which is love+sex (as opposed to mainly for sex only).
I am sure by now, she had deleted this email. She had probably forgotten about it, as it was more than a decade ago.
The last I heard from a mutual friend, she is already happily married and a mother of two gorgeous kids, a son and a daughter of mixed parentage.
As I will be deleting the the entire folder containing our photos (looks kind of lousy low res pictures in this day and age) and emails altogether, I thought I should "reprint" this email, in this Forum, for posterity.
Maybe, another 10 years from now in 2032 (if AFib hasn't consumed me), when I read it again in Sammyboy Forum, I may have a different set of feelings.
For the record, I am amused reading this letter again (now) vs very very and extremely sad (10 years ago).
Being dumped by someone whom I really loved very much (as an innocent and naive young man in my 20s) was a horrible x horrible feeling.
I have cut and paste her email word for word, including our damn silly nick names that we gave to each other, in our private communications and moments.
February 14 2012
Hunky
Happy Anniversary!
It has been 3 years, and a difficult last 6 months for both of us.
The rather wide timezone difference is dividing us further and further apart.
WhatsApp is an absolute failure. It is no longer instantaneous communication for us. It resolves nothing between us.
I think it's easier to write you an email than to talk on a long distance phone call. Your usual silence on the last few calls was deafening. It's a complete waste of IDD charges. I know you can afford it, but I don't like it.
LET ME MAKE THIS SHORT.
WE NEED TIME APART.
I am sorry.
There are many things happening on in my life right now, ever since I am back home and working in a new organisation.
You had asked me in your last WhatsApp two days ago, which I haven't replied you, whether there's another man in my life.
Well, the short answer is Yes.
I know you will be upset, but please understand that I am between a rock and a hard place. You should know by now I am an emotionally needy person. You aren't here for me since August last year!
Well, a special someone has sort of replaced your presence in my life now. I strongly believe this wouldn't have happened, had you make the sound decision to leave Singapore with me.
Sorry.
I guess what has happened has happened.
I also want to take this final opportunity to say that it has been very refreshing to share many happy moments with you in Singapore.
You started as my youngest landlord+colleague that I have ever known to date, and ended up as the man who showered me the most love, time and attention, in the beautiful sunny island of Singapore.
I think I still owe you 3 months of rental. I will wire the money to you in due course to your bank account.
Hunky baby, I also want to let you know that my feelings for you haven't changed at all. I’m still very much smitten over you, despite being apart.
It's going to be very difficult to forget about a future, without you by my side, taking care of me. You are my best butler and partner of this world when I was in Singapore.
I don’t know if you have someone else in mind to be with right now, but if someone who makes you happy comes along in your life, do move on.
Before I say bye for the very last time, if you feel the need to talk, call me.
However, if you have no interest to talk constructively on an IDD call, please don't waste your money again.
I fully understand if you are going to be extremely upset reading this email on Valentine's Day, and on our 3rd year anniversary.
Sorry once again.
Bad Kitty
:(
I came across a super old folder containing this email dated February 14 2012, from my first sort of "real*" GF to me.
*When I say "real", I mean a relationship which is love+sex (as opposed to mainly for sex only).
I am sure by now, she had deleted this email. She had probably forgotten about it, as it was more than a decade ago.
The last I heard from a mutual friend, she is already happily married and a mother of two gorgeous kids, a son and a daughter of mixed parentage.
As I will be deleting the the entire folder containing our photos (looks kind of lousy low res pictures in this day and age) and emails altogether, I thought I should "reprint" this email, in this Forum, for posterity.
Maybe, another 10 years from now in 2032 (if AFib hasn't consumed me), when I read it again in Sammyboy Forum, I may have a different set of feelings.
For the record, I am amused reading this letter again (now) vs very very and extremely sad (10 years ago).
Being dumped by someone whom I really loved very much (as an innocent and naive young man in my 20s) was a horrible x horrible feeling.
I have cut and paste her email word for word, including our damn silly nick names that we gave to each other, in our private communications and moments.
February 14 2012
Hunky
Happy Anniversary!
It has been 3 years, and a difficult last 6 months for both of us.
The rather wide timezone difference is dividing us further and further apart.
WhatsApp is an absolute failure. It is no longer instantaneous communication for us. It resolves nothing between us.
I think it's easier to write you an email than to talk on a long distance phone call. Your usual silence on the last few calls was deafening. It's a complete waste of IDD charges. I know you can afford it, but I don't like it.
LET ME MAKE THIS SHORT.
WE NEED TIME APART.
I am sorry.
There are many things happening on in my life right now, ever since I am back home and working in a new organisation.
You had asked me in your last WhatsApp two days ago, which I haven't replied you, whether there's another man in my life.
Well, the short answer is Yes.
I know you will be upset, but please understand that I am between a rock and a hard place. You should know by now I am an emotionally needy person. You aren't here for me since August last year!
Well, a special someone has sort of replaced your presence in my life now. I strongly believe this wouldn't have happened, had you make the sound decision to leave Singapore with me.
Sorry.
I guess what has happened has happened.
I also want to take this final opportunity to say that it has been very refreshing to share many happy moments with you in Singapore.
You started as my youngest landlord+colleague that I have ever known to date, and ended up as the man who showered me the most love, time and attention, in the beautiful sunny island of Singapore.
I think I still owe you 3 months of rental. I will wire the money to you in due course to your bank account.
Hunky baby, I also want to let you know that my feelings for you haven't changed at all. I’m still very much smitten over you, despite being apart.
It's going to be very difficult to forget about a future, without you by my side, taking care of me. You are my best butler and partner of this world when I was in Singapore.
I don’t know if you have someone else in mind to be with right now, but if someone who makes you happy comes along in your life, do move on.
Before I say bye for the very last time, if you feel the need to talk, call me.
However, if you have no interest to talk constructively on an IDD call, please don't waste your money again.
I fully understand if you are going to be extremely upset reading this email on Valentine's Day, and on our 3rd year anniversary.
Sorry once again.
Bad Kitty
:(