when i was a teenager, i want to marry the girl i like, fall in love and then make babies. now, when i see girls i like, i just want to have sex. environment and age are factors why i think like tht. so are you pure at heart?
You need to go watch the movie "the hurt locker".it is about a US marine who defuses terrorist bombs in Iraq for a living.
Towards the end of the movie theres one part where he says this to his baby boy"when you are young,when u are a baby,you love everything,you love your jack in the box,you love your teddy bear,you love your pyjamas,you love your mommy.but when u grow older
many of these things dont seem so special anymore.ur jack in a box is just a toy in a metal tin.and when you get to my age,it may just be one or two things...for me,I think its one."
Many people live through life not really having lived.they let the dull repetitive stagnant life in the peaceful city lull them into a false sense of security and stagnation.you need to go out and find one thing you love,one thing that truly matters,your hurt locker.
It could be skydiving off the cliff of mountains,it could be driving a underground race car 200 miles an hour thru the city with the police chasing,it could be becoming a professional hit man,it could be becoming a billionaire and building an empire.
Many things in life are merely attachments,your kids your wife your family,u need to learn to let go of these attachments and go out and find one thing that truly matters.for me its the blood pounding in my ears,the 100 degrees shimmering heat of the desert,the heavy clump of my boots,the overwhelming silence when all the noise in the world cease to exist and nothing in the world matters except the moment,the click of the clipper as I clip the wire of the 160 pound bomb in front of me.
Im picking up my bomb suit and going to iraq.