I cried for 3 days because I didn't get into medicine, says RJC student
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Confession: I cried for 3 days because I didn't get into medicine, says RJC student
Today's confession comes from a Raffles Junior College student who 'speaks and breathes' Medicine -- an ambition she worked hard towards since 12 -- only to be unable to get a place in her desired university course.
She had cried for three days because she does not understand what went wrong, and sees no other alternative to achieving her lifelong dream.
Here is the confession in full:
"I'm writing this because I know that someone out there is experiencing the same thing, and I need someone who can listen to me - that's all that I'm left with now.
"I didn't get into Medicine.
"For the past three days I have been crying because the sadness is just so intense I don't know where else I can channel it to.
"Wanting to do Medicine has been my childhood ambition, since Primary Six maybe? It materialized because of many reasons like the death of my relative, but I won't delve into that.
"I studied hard to get into RGS, and like all kiasu students, I did community service, I did internships to find out more and get close to this career.
"Admit it, many people do that, and sometimes we do enjoy these things.
"I came to RJ, and again, mugged hard for A levels and got decent A level grades to apply to medicine.
"Everything was going well. My interview went well because I was speaking and breathing 'Medicine'. This passion has been there for so long, it is already deeply entrenched in me.
"I don't know what went wrong, and what I did wrong. When I received the news, I cried so hard and just couldn't see any way out of this.
"Please don't say I'm dramatizing. I hope you can read this and put yourself in my shoes.
"It breaks my heart so much when my friends told me of people who got in because they were just 'trying it out', and there was even someone who decided to apply because 'Medicine has more slots than other courses like Law and Dentistry'.
"Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to be 'sour grapes', but... it just hurts so, so much.
"If I were to get that place instead, I promise I will do anything I can to become a good doctor next time, only to realize I can't fulfil that promise anymore.
"Some of you might suggest going overseas to study Medicine, but I know for sure my family won't be able to afford the six years of course overseas, and the hefty costs of living. I don't want to owe them and become a burden.
"Those who are in and deserve it, congrats and I'm sure you will become a great doctor.
"Those who got in but are not sure about Medicine at all, is it okay that after reading this, you will reflect and think through whether you really want it? Because somewhere out there, there are people like me who are simply bereft of all hope and cannot take the thought of not being able to fulfil this dream.
"Lastly, thank you for reading and listening to me. I'm grateful."
