What Life Can Throw at You! It is unbelievable what life can throw at you! All my life I have grown up believing that life was fair and beautiful. I had the best parents in the world. They are still together after 57 years. What an inspiration! The reason I am writing this is to let people know they could always be worse off. I am a married woman with three grown children. My oldest son has AIDS. I can't except it. I can't let go and let God. My other son has been bi-polar and takes heavy doses of meds every day to keep him normal. He must be monitored daily. He lives a block away in a place where they have apartments for the disabled. My youngest and only girl is a "drug addict." She can't see her way out. I pray for all of them every day. The pain is like no other that I can describe. I ask myself, "What did I do wrong? Am I being punished? Why would God make all my children sick?" It has taken its toll on my health, mentally and physically. I have people tell me miracles happen. I don't believe that. Why has God chosen me for all this heartache? They all live close by and count on me for everything. All I do is cry and cry. I have been married to their stepfather for 25 years. He gives me no emotional support whatsoever. I read the Bible daily and pray daily to keep HOPE. I will lie in bed all day wishing I could make things better for them or I wish it was me and not my children. My question is... Why Me? How can one person handle this alone? I have no friends and do not belong to any church. I do believe in God, but where is He? I try to count my blessings, but can't seem to think of any. Please pray for my children and me. The reason I am writing this is to let people know they could always be worse off.