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You don't seem to be able to do anything right in your life; including how to take it away. Search for courses in Skills Future that may equip you to complete the job. On a more serious note, please seek help if you aren't joking about wanting to end it all. Life is not perfect; to love only perfection is to hate life on this earth. Please take care.