I don't know what you are talking about ...
But looking through some of your postings in recent months, your world must have been hellish ... you seem to carry the perception of being victimised by bullies ; real or imagined.
My message to you is don't be discouraged. Don't focus on your miseries. Be positive. Expand your self. Be assured of your security in your true identity. Confidence is not lashing out at others. Confidence is shown when you extend your love to others even when they are unlovable.
I find people from certain country love to ask people to self reflect but not themselves. Since when I think confidence is lashing out at others? I am the type who tolerated bullies until I burst. Not the type who lashed out at others for smallest thing (that eatshitndie is trying to portray).
Many times I just took nonsense in my stride, ignored and walked away. Go ask my past staff, I screamed at any one of them before? Even when some of them showed me all kind of faces especially in the beginning stage. I only screamed at one boss before in contrast for the false accusations he had made.
So please don't don't come and preach to me about extending love to others when they are not lovable. I have at least not initiated any harm to anyone in my life even when I disliked them.
Unfortunately, can't say the same for those hellish people in my poetry. I have not done any harm to them but they harmed me and done lots of shady things. And it is not perception but reality.
Lastly, of course I am focusing on my life as I am not guilty of anything that people are slandering.