I have been thinking of this question on and off since 3.30am, in between periods doing the damn nonsensical-going-to-hit-LD-claim work for the Earth's most uncouth northern barbaric species.
Now almost 8am (13 Feb 2023), I have my conclusion.
I don't want to die in my 50s or above. I would be a naggy and wrinkled up old man.
I should be suffering from premature aging, and a host of mental retardation illnesses. Maybe even hallucinations, as I tend to overthink too much. My brain may just short circuit by itself and never recover. People will start laughing and mocking at me.
Also, by then, my paroxysmal afib would most likely have develop into a chronic or persistent afib. I should be in and out of hospital very frequently. This would destroy the quality of my life completely.
I think (by then), even my spouse or partner (if any) would be sick of me. She might even give me a 'black face" everyday because she has to watch out for me. This would be a torture for her. It would rob her quality of life. She would subsequently age rapidly and her physical beauty, sexiness, heart and soul would depreciate very fast. I would have brought irremediable harm onto a person I love very much.
So I have (more or less) made up my mind. I should give myself another 10 years.
Yes. One decade more to exist in this planet!
Even if I don't die naturally via my heart failure, I should poison myself via my collection of dangerous medication (by then).
Also, I should be in my prime and senior 40s, just before depreciating physiologically and psychologically downhill.
What better time to go, rather than to remain on Earth rotting away, surely and slowly.
I think I would still look presentable in my senior 40s.
And when I have my last breath 10 years from now (on the eve of Valentine's Day), even though the physiological signs of aging are becoming evident, I think these potential minus-es can be compensated by my good looks, height, exercise-toned body, consistent skin and body care regimes over the years from now.
My mind is now clearer than at 3.30am.
Time to sleep soon.
My heart is beating a bit fast now @134bpm even though it's only early morning. Must be the excessive caffeine in the 3.5 cups of Nespresso coffee I had since 3.30am.
Anyway, when do you think is a good age for you to die and depart from Earth?