You sound sincere, sure! I would give myself an opportunity to listen to what you wish to offer and hear your ideology. Let begin by sharing which ideology you are representing, are you a catholic, methodist, lutheran, anglican, orthodox or mega church follower? I have taken the first step, waiting for you to make the next step.
Methodist, Anglican, Lutheran, etc.....these terms are not in the Bible. Only the word catholic appears in the Bible and it simply means 'universal' - and not what is known to many as Catholic as in Catholic Church.
For REAL born-again Christians, this labelling of Methodist, Anglican, Lutheran is meaningless, just plain meaningless. Once you acknowledge you are a sinner and in need of help to redeem your sin, everything will fall into places and God will reveal to you.
There is no ideology in Christianity (unlike communism). In Christianity, believers are simply to establish a relationship with the Creator because of our darkened sin after the fall of Adam, our relationship is broken. We are trying to establish and rebuild the relation with our Creator.
For non-believers, it is up to them to define who your creator is....they can define or associate their creator as monkey god, elephant god, tree god or whatever. But our Creator is written in the Bible and He has sent His son, Jesus to reveal who the real Creator is to us.
So get real, brother! Don't be stubborn!
God Bless
Psalm 23