Redditer: How can I enjoy life when I feel like this?

[Flibbertigibbet]

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How can I enjoy life when I feel like this?​

My OCD is far too complex to even know where to begin. I'm a perfectionist, I do my best NOT to be in a heightened sense of self to avoid pride but I seek pleasure and satisfaction from completing a task, being organized, being "perfect", I guess. But I never do it out of pride, I don't bring other people down.

It HAS some good aspects, it leads me to manage money better, helps keep my hygiene in check (especially with depression) it makes me frugal and it just brings some kind of order in my life.

To cut perfectionism out would be to cut out myself in a way. It's too complex, good feelings and feelings of "doing something until it feels right" can go hand in hand. I can't enjoy anything now because of this, and it's bad because it leads to a void, which I desperately attempt to occupy it with anything, including sin.

I DON'T WANT TO BE BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE. I just need some kind of reassurance about my OCD, some of it brings out GOOD in me.

 

[Flibbertigibbet]

Does perfectionism mean when having sex with a woman, must correctly forecast the same orgasm timing?

@Dongyi

 

[Dongyi]

Does perfectionism mean when having sex with a woman, must correctly forecast the same orgasm timing?

@Dongyi

This one not my domain. You should ask @Sustanon

 

[Flibbertigibbet]

This one not my domain. You should ask @Sustanon

That guy nowadays kisiao and intoxicated on CECA women. 走火入魔 already...

 

[Dongyi]

That guy nowadays kisiao and intoxicated on CECA women. 走火入魔 already...

He 乾爽 only.