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As a 21F who lived an evergreen life. I have no clue about the dating scene.
Hear me outTurning 21 this October.
I have been single all my life, never been in a romantic relationship/dated anyone. Never kissed or did any couple related activities with the opposite gender. Never had teenager love before, albeit crushes.
Don’t get me wrong. I crave intimacy and having a significant other(ofc there is perfectly nothing wrong with being single!). I was forbidden to date anyone in Pri/sec school and seldom explore dating apps. I was only on LeoMatch.
Furthermore, I sort of only got my life together at the grown age of 21??? Back when I was 13-18, I was painfully shy and did not have my own identity and voice. I recently started to indulge in self-care, such as amplifying my skincare routine, oral care etc. I definitely am more mature now.
I had a pastsomewhere when I was 17-18. That made me believe I was never good enough for anyone and I turned to self-isolation. [I got out of that dark place but scars don’t fade easily]. Hence if I got a boyfriend, he must accept my past. I am still schooling full-time and working part-time, I just want to ensure I am financially and mentally stable when I do date someone.
Then there is the part where I am scared I have not much to provide. I don’t think I am that pretty in looks, not the smartest in academics and not that romantic. I rather date someone at the same level as me and we will bring each other up.
