Mr perfect fall in love with a straight friend

[Mr Perfect]

I've been in love with my friend for four years now. If you think that's bad, there's more to come: I'm gay and he's straight! He was aware of the situation years ago and was really understanding and he only asked that I wouldn't tell anyone else of my feelings. Our friendship has grown since we met over 8 years ago and so have my feelings. I am now at a point where I feel miserable and depressed every time he gets a new girlfriend or sees others friends and not me. But then when I'm with him, below the surface level happiness I still have this dull heartache which cripples me when we part. For years I've beaten myself up about the feelings because of just how pathetic I must look to my friends that know about my feelings and because I'm scared I might lose him as a friend somehow and be left heart-broken, and mostly because I know how ridiculous it is that I think or wish he might feel the same. I am sick of feeling sad and lonely when I think about him but don't want to lose my feelings in case miraculously he might feel the same! How do I make the feelings stop? Please help me, Anne, because I'm at breaking point. Or am I beyond help?

 

[red amoeba]

so sad.

pruss one for ur effort to copy and paste this from somewhere...

nxt time pls delete "anne" from last sentence ok?

 

[chowka]

so sad.

pruss one for ur effort to copy and paste this from somewhere...

nxt time pls delete "anne" from last sentence ok?

wahlaneh... (borrowed :p)

I had deliberately used clones to push his thread to third page and now you bring it up?

 

[middaydog]

and you are not a bit worry that your boss looks at you one kind