小三 Redditer's agony: I have no idea how I fell in love with this man

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I have no idea how I fell in love with this man​

In My Feels


I didn’t even want him at first! I was just vulnerable after my own breakup and wanted affection. But I wasn’t even interested in him! Now I’m in bed crying over the fact that he’s not leaving her to be with me.

In the beginning he would tell me he wanted to be with me and that he’s falling for me. All of this stopped since I asked him not to make me false promises. So it’s obvious he was only saying those things so I would keep sleeping with him.

All he cares about is the physical aspect of this relationship and it hurts so much.

But how did this even happen?! I didn’t even WANT to keep seeing him. When I first slept with him I wanted to forget about it and disappear! How did I go from this to in love with this man?! He’s not even my type! Why and I crying over him?!

I want to break it off and stop hurting but as soon as he gives me the tiniest bit of attention I’m sucked right back into it.

I’ve prepared a text telling him that I don’t want to be his mistress or his eff-buddy and that he should forget about me unless he’s somehow single in the future. I want to send that to him but we keep texting as if everything was peaches! I can’t find “an opening” to break things off.

I think I’m also scared that he won’t do anything to keep me.

He wants to see me next week and I know that it’ll be amazing in the moment but as soon as he leaves I’m gonna feel like an object, used and forgotten. He’ll go back to his wife and family and I’ll be left thinking about him and waiting for his texts.

I have no idea how I got here. I wasn’t even interested in him at first! I’m so mad at myself for doing this!