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Sometimes, I feel the same as this Redditer...
I am so angry with God
I am so angry with God, I want to go as far as to say I hate him. I hate that I have to keep up a relationship with him. I cannot even keep a relationship with my soul. I hate myself. I hate the evil of the world. I hate the evil in me. I hate that I’m human and can sin. I hate that being gay is a sin.
Out of 12 siblings who died at birth, I lived. But I’m not living. I hate God for that too. Everyone else got to die and immediately got to go to a place of eternal safety and never ending love without even having to have breathed. Meanwhile I’m here with the ignorant and incompetent parents, the atrocious mentally health. They didn’t even have to do anything.
I feel like I’m just here to be an example for a Christians of what not to be.
I hate that I’m here. I hate that God brought me here. I hate that if I try to escape I’ll go to hell. I’m going to hell anyway because God is returning soon and I won’t be ready.
Why would a loving God allow people to exist knowing they won’t be able to make it? I wouldn’t willing put my child in a dangerous situation. I don’t care for the freewill talk. I hate having freewill. I hate God so much right now.
You first need to assemble a collection of wrong answers. Only then, when the right answer is finally presented to you, will it shine like a diamond among pebbles. The right answer stands out only against a backdrop of wrong ones. Without a baptism of wrong answers, the right answer is simply another idea to be chewed and then set aside. 
Most Christians kpkb not because they genuinely disagree with the tenets of Christian theology. They kpkb because their desires have gone unmet. For most people, once their desires are satisfied, it hardly matters who their God is, they will believe.

Most Christians kpkb not because they genuinely disagree with the tenets of Christian theology. They kpkb because their desires have gone unmet. For most people, once their desires are satisfied, it hardly matters who their God is, they will believe.