Today I nearly committed suicide but I'm still here. I decide to give myself a second chance.
It was very difficult to find an empty stretch of road because I dont want hurt others. After driving up and down I finally found. But when I drove up the stretch of Airport Road and floor the gas it was like I am floating in a dream. I had no feeling. I didn't feel the car was light or anything like that. But I kept hearing my boy's voice in my head.
So I took my foot off and let the car roll to a stop. I cried. I fucked up. I must do whatever I can to give him the best in life even if his mother won't talk to me anymore.
I drove very slowly back. Funny thing was that I was stopped at traffic police road block near Eunos area and Sgt Ismail asked me why I was crying and if I was OK. He said I should not drive if emotional. He asked me park the car one side and rest.
After about one hour,t I said I very uncomfortable to wait there and need to be alone. So the sergeant asked me to drive carefully home.
Now I am home in an empty home.
Tomorrow I will start afresh.
It was very difficult to find an empty stretch of road because I dont want hurt others. After driving up and down I finally found. But when I drove up the stretch of Airport Road and floor the gas it was like I am floating in a dream. I had no feeling. I didn't feel the car was light or anything like that. But I kept hearing my boy's voice in my head.
So I took my foot off and let the car roll to a stop. I cried. I fucked up. I must do whatever I can to give him the best in life even if his mother won't talk to me anymore.
I drove very slowly back. Funny thing was that I was stopped at traffic police road block near Eunos area and Sgt Ismail asked me why I was crying and if I was OK. He said I should not drive if emotional. He asked me park the car one side and rest.
After about one hour,t I said I very uncomfortable to wait there and need to be alone. So the sergeant asked me to drive carefully home.
Now I am home in an empty home.
Tomorrow I will start afresh.