That is the worse way to do it. So many people attempted suicide this way, but more often then not, unless u know what u are doing, u end up paralyzing yourself. Shooting yourself in the head can miss the kill shot. End up shooting only a part of your brain and then become veggie. If u can get hold of a gun, then better to wear a big sign around your neck that says "Pinky, u fucker, I am coming for you", go up to his residence and waving the gun around, and for sure, the Gurkhas will shoot u dead.