I am married. Married life has been stable. It's like that lor...no major upz or down with wife. Life ok...
About 6 years ago...i fell into love with a gal. She is 8 years younger than me. Whenever i am with her..i am happier. We went on holidays together. I love her but yet cannot marry her. I cannot give her happiness of a married life cos i am married. But i do love her a lot, as much as i love my wife (if not even more).
Today...she tells me that she is seeing another man...
When the whatsapp message came in...i was calm. In my brains...i think i have no right to say anything nor have the right to be angry or upset. After all...she has sacrificed her 6 years of "youth" being with me.
My heart pains...tears rolled and rolled despite my brain telling me i must not cry.
10mins after...i broke down and cry...really cry...i try to compose myself. I succeeded for 15mins and then i broke down again.
Now i take a walk to Kwan In Temple... i will pray for her and him and wish her well. I love her and always will.
I cannot be selfish.
My heart is so pain and i hope time will heal....
I am not asking for any comments, neither i am seeking any sympathy here. My relationship of 6 years with her has been kept with such secrecy that no one knows and I have no one to talk to about it. Just writing as i am still in shock and sadness.
I am just airing my sadness and yet happiness for her (as she has found someone who can give her better happiness than i had provided for last 6 years).
.....I hope time will heal..... sigh....:(:(:(
About 6 years ago...i fell into love with a gal. She is 8 years younger than me. Whenever i am with her..i am happier. We went on holidays together. I love her but yet cannot marry her. I cannot give her happiness of a married life cos i am married. But i do love her a lot, as much as i love my wife (if not even more).
Today...she tells me that she is seeing another man...
When the whatsapp message came in...i was calm. In my brains...i think i have no right to say anything nor have the right to be angry or upset. After all...she has sacrificed her 6 years of "youth" being with me.
My heart pains...tears rolled and rolled despite my brain telling me i must not cry.
10mins after...i broke down and cry...really cry...i try to compose myself. I succeeded for 15mins and then i broke down again.
Now i take a walk to Kwan In Temple... i will pray for her and him and wish her well. I love her and always will.
I cannot be selfish.
My heart is so pain and i hope time will heal....
I am not asking for any comments, neither i am seeking any sympathy here. My relationship of 6 years with her has been kept with such secrecy that no one knows and I have no one to talk to about it. Just writing as i am still in shock and sadness.
I am just airing my sadness and yet happiness for her (as she has found someone who can give her better happiness than i had provided for last 6 years).
.....I hope time will heal..... sigh....:(:(:(
